lmao. i dont really remember shit from todaay. i was sober too. lmao.

uhh, pretty much chilled at Rachel’s all day. got dressed & readyy for this kickback at Eric’s. walked over there.

i decided to sag & so Vivian & Rachel did it w/me (: we cute, we cute. lmao.

Eric’s house was chill. danced & shit. lmao. it was fun(: did something i havent done in like 2 years. hahah. i needed itt. “ooh. girl you got that bomb ass pussy” (; haha. Holiday Inn was stuck in my head(; ended up spending the night & yeahh(:

March 31, 2010

so, i had spent the night at Christine’s house. watched Fourth Kind & shit. hah. woke up. made tocino, talked shit to Chris and waited for Uncle Chris to drop me off at Rachel’s house. she lives soooo far. hah. walked in the house, saw Vivian, met Adrian, beat Rachel’s ass, and accidently ate Adrian’s gum. lmao. after she left, walked up to Albertson’s w/ Vivian & Rachel to meet Marilyn. went to Walgreens, Albertsons, bought some Starbucks cos my cravings, then Subway(; the guy gave me a free cookie. haha. chilled at McDonald’s for a good 3 hours tryna figure out what to do. while going outside to meet up w/ Erin & Eric, i accidently ran into the McDonald’s door. hahaha. everybody saw. fckin funny. met up w/ John & Eric. they asked if i was gay too & Rachel’s like, “she’s strictly dickly(:” & John goes, “well, i’m Mr. Dickly(;” hahaha. oh wooow. he left. we all walked Marilyn to go home & drank our lean. shit was supposed to take like 45 min to kick in. so, we walked to the park. hah. Vivian made Eric hold my hand(: uhh, got kicked out the park for the first time in my life. lmao. so, walked to the other park. shit kicked in & i started feeling it. i didnt even think i was going to feel it. but, i did. hahah. i was fckin kicking a pinecone. then picked it up & named it Mr. Clean(: becos “pinecone” reminded me of “pine-sol” & yeahh. lmao. i took a picture of it & said is remember it forever. met up w/ John again. his bitchass was high. fckin speed walking & shit. fckin led me to this empty ass spot in this Storage place. we fucked around a bit. hah. didnt have sex or anything. but yeahh, kissed a guy w/ braces for the first time. hahah. it was on my list of things to do. we were there for a good 15-20 min. met up w/ the rest of them at Walgreens. fckin laid on top of everybody w/ my fucked up ass. dropped my phone, then fell off the bench to get it. John was all trippin cos i was acting fucked up. everyone was like, stfu, she’s fine. waited for Erin, as soon as she came, my dumbass was like “if you were a guy, i’d fuck the shit out of you.” walked to Eric’s house. then, told Erin she had to watch me in case anything happened. we chilled for a couple hours. i was fuuuuuucked up. it hit me fckin haard. my pupils were huuuge. i called up Felix. told him all kinds of bullshit. my phone was about to die and shit. made videos, took pictures, smoked a hookah & got pissed cos it didnt do shit. maann, i dont even remember most of what happened. i was just laying on top of everybody & on suuuper lean. lmao. walked home w/ Rachel & Vivian around 2 something. got home at 3. had to sneak in the house fucked up. got lectured & knocked the fuck out.

March 30, 2010

my cracked out looking 24 year old cousin, Christine (: we needa take a better picture before i leave. hah.

so, i just realized today would be 2 years since it happened. and yeeeahh…

anyway, wokee up & got readyy for Christine to pick me up. her and Uncle Chris picked me up and we headed to Seafood City. Christine thought it was some dirty ass china town flea market. lmfao. when we got there, she kept exploring around. hah. ate some Chow King, then went showing for a bit. Christine was all amazed. lmfao. it was funny. uhh, Uncle Chris dropped us off at her house & i met her roommate. we chilled, smoked, ate, watched Hangover, part of Step Brothers, Ghost of Girlfriend’s Past, and fixed the internet, high as shit. lmao. we still got a good couple hours & she’s supposed to take me to get my nails done & watch Alice In Wonderland 3D, high as fuck. hahah. we’ll see how that goes. but, im not smoking anymore after this. it’s one of those once a year things. lmao. so yeeeahh, im goood(:

March 29, 2010

so, i somehow broke the internet last night. & yeeeeahhh. lmao. uhh, today was pretty good (: woke up, made plans to go chill then see Christine after. ended up not seeing Christine. gonna see her bitchass tomorrow. me and Rachel ended up going to Vivian’s house. kicked it w/ her & her cousin. smoked, ate, took pictures, made videos & danced. walked over to go meet up w/ Aaron. smoked again, explored a tunnel, then walked to McDonalds. got the 50 piece meal & was fckin trippin out. lmao. the guy at the register was tryna impress me and shit. hah. umm, went back to Viv’s. chilled for a bit. then got picked up by Rachel’s mom. now, we’re here & my feet hurt. lmao. i want to do something tonighttttt. tomorrow should be good though (:

March 28, 2010

woke up pretty early. hah. around 10 something? texted Barbara back, updated my social networks, & got a text from Sean. hah. fell asleep again & woke up at like 12. got readyy. took a shower, all that good shitt. Uncle Rocky came to pick me up around 4:30. we had a good ass talk about life on the way to the airport. got fckin piiissedd cos they had blocked off the road. there was a shitload of traffic. i was stressin. it was already an hour before my flight & i wasnt even at the airport yet. thank god i printed out my boarding pass already. arrived at the airport 30 min before my flight left. i had to rush to check my bags & shit. i was streeeeeessin. almost had a panic attack. i dropped all my papers & shit. hah. the guy at the front was like, “calm down ! don’t panic ! you still have time !” haha. i was trippin ouuutt. made it on the plane & was on my way (: listened to my ipod, secretly took pictures, & rested the whole time til Phoenix. got there & all i see are over friendly white people. lmao. some lady called me “Janis” & was talkin about “you’re going to viva las vegas !” i was like, thiiiiis bitch. lmao. managed to get to the new gate & board the new plane all by myself. hah. got to Vegas, picked up my baggage, met up w/ my ride & headed to Rachel’s house. made some noodles & kicked it. still dont know what we’re gonna do tonight. hah. i’m happy though. i’m H O M E (: <3

March 27, 2010

woke up to a call from Christine (; surprised it wasnt from Denver. hah. but, uhh..talked to her for a bit. then, got off to try to clean & pack & shit. didnt really accomplish shit. went to go find some luggage, found all these baby pictures and baby books, etc (: i was like yaaaay. hah. i can barely remember my childhood. lmao. i have yet to find my class pictures. i really want to find those ! hah. uhh, helped move shit. watched part of “She’s Out Of My League” and packed a bit. i still have a lot more. hah. set up my trip for tomorrow.i still have a shitload to do. im laaaggin it. hmm, well Uncle Rocky jus came over. gonna pick up the kids for a few days. guess all the kids are gonna be gone. hah. should be a good thing for them? welp, im tryna pack my bags but Tumblr is distracting me. then Sean is tryna chop. he says he’s not but i dont believe it. -_______-. hah. 

March 26, 2010

woke up to a call from Denver. apparently, he’s not grounded. haha. uhh, i have like 2 hours before i have to be at the school. so, i get off the phone w/ him to get ready. i find out im allowed to go out to Vegas. so, i gotta buy my ticket today (: get to the school. meet up w/ Allyson. tell her my storyy & meet up w/ the vball guys. we go in the gym and the basketball guys are all messin w/ me. hah. we wait like half an hour before the bus gets there. i sat next to Aron on the bus & sang for him (: uhh, got to SUHI & they were playing all these swanging songs ! i start dancing & shit. lmao. it was funny when i danced w/ Brendan. he would dance back with me. haha. im definitely bringing him to Culture Night & Talent Show (: uhh, we passed for a bit. im getting better everyday. hmm, JV won. i kept screaming cos of the suspense (: lmao. went to go get mexican food w/ Henry & Danny. i experienced the most delicious California burrito i have ever eaten in my life. Varsity lost. it was funny as always. & that’s about it. ooh. & i saw this one SEXY ASS boy in the bleachers. im pretty sure he went to Sweetwater. but he was fckin cute ! i was about to chop it up but i think his mom was there. hah. omg. i got all shy. couldnt even dance in front of him. lmao. but, yeeeahhh. Patches kept fckin with me on the bus. hah. tryna get me to sit next to Sunshine & shit. punkass. got dropped off at the school & ended up being the last one to get picked up. hah. i was all scared. lmao. took pictures in that time though (:

came home. chilled for a bit. webcammed & tumblr. then paid for my plane ticket. it’s official ! im going HOME<3 haha. i think ima jus clean and pack my shit tonight. there’s no vball practice tomorrow. so we’ll see how things go. hah. im excited (:

March 25, 2010

messy ass room & on webcam. but, omg. today. today. today !

well, woke up at like 10 to a call from Denver. we talked for a good hour or 2. aimed Adrian & Voleake for a bit. then, went to Cosco. it was ghetto. barely any free samples in that bitch. hah. got back just in time to get ready & go to practice. practice was good (: practiced spiking w/ the guys(: the net was fckin high ! hah. uhh, Coach told me i was a flirt. lmao. i dont even realize when im flirting. haha. uhh, passed for a bit & played my first real volleyball game ! lmfao. i fckin suck. haha. s’all good though. jus needa practice (: it was pretty fun today, though (: good day. hah. Coach Theresa drove me, Aron, Henry, & Kevin home. it was funnnyyyyy (: especially when we saw Rick walking home. lmfao. nooobody likes him ! hah. then Brendan was all tryna chop. hah. wow.

uhh, chilled at home for a bit. webcammed w/ Jae. danced for a bit & took pictures (: then webcammed w/ Adrian, Voleake, & Aron. got a call from Denver. he refused to hang up. hah. got fucking shooooocked at something and tripped out. then Denver’s mom calls me back to tell me he’s grounded. i felt baaad. i call up Cindy & talk to her for a bit. now, im on webcam w/ Voleake & Adrian. waiting for Aron to come back. hah. Adrian’s trippin outtttt.

March 24, 2010

Voleake doesnt belong. she’s the minority this time. lmao. dont like, dont like, dont like any of these pics. but, fuck it.

woke up early as fuck this morning. fckin 7 something to some damn texts. i sure as hell fell the fuck back to sleep after. hah. Jae called around 11 & woke me up to some bad news. uhh, got off the phone w/ her & started getting ready. took a shower & washed clothes. then started curling my hair. i didnt like it. so i stopped & straightened it. was already running late by then & still didnt like it, so i put it half way up, halfway down. it looked okay. hah. i looked pretty cute (; Denver called & said he couldnt make it. lameass. hah. uhh, got bitched at cos i was running late. then got dropped off. it was pretty fun (; practiced passing & Aron tells me there’s “another Janisha on their team” & im like, “who?” & it’s Kela ! so i call her over & we take pictures (: hah. i told everyone she was my cousin/sister. lmao. some people believed me too. lmao. i was mad i left my camera at home though. uhh, it was getting hot so changed out of my long sleeve to Brendan’s shirt. i looked cute on me (; haha. i kept making fun of Olympian’s coach. haha. he looked like a referee. lmao. Andres’s little brother is adorable ! hah. he plays volleyball too ! it was fckin cute (: uhh, tried to teach Coach R’s brother, Jake, how to chop. it was funny. hmm, JV did pretty good. lost. but didnt pretty good. lmao. uhh, didnt want to do books for the varsity’s game. so, i sat on the bench w/ the guys. it was funnnn (: we knew we were gonna lose, so we fucked around. they were teaching Coach Theresa bad spanish. lmao. & i guess i “roasted” on Patrick. lmao. hmm, ignored Ivaan & texted Lexus (: he’s gonna smoke me out sometime this week. :O hah. they game was hella funny even though we lost. it was good though (: got a ride home from Shewit & Coach R got all wide-eyed. lmao. she’s like, “smack him if he does anything !” it was funny. hahah. got home & nobody was there. realized i forgot my house key & went to Mikey’s. chilled there for like an hour then they called me to come home. got a call from Denver & pretty much chilled. i’m waiting for Voleake’s bitchass to send me pictures. & i want a damn volleyball ! hah. ima play tomorrow at practice (:

hmm, talked to Denver again. he likes me (: then webcammed w/ Felix for a bit. it was good(; now, im watching “The Land Before Time” while Brendan is tryna chop. lmao. well, goodnight ! (:

March 23, 2010

Song Playing: Perfect 2 - Auburn

i havent thrown up a peace sign in foooorever. but, did it cos i was listening to this song. haha. i used to hate that song. now, it’s okay (: haha. but, yeeehh. oh & my attempt to scrunch my hair (:

okay. pretty good day (: woke up, took a shower, & decided to scrunch my hair. hah. took a shitload of webcam pictures. chopped w/ Denver for a bit. learned so much about him. haha. hmm, Cindy & Voleake approve. Cindy says he’s a sweetheart (: we’ll see how tomorrow goes (: 

hmm, went to volleyball practice & the fckin black guys were there. all tryna chop & shit. said they liked my hair. haha. none of them have a chancee(; hmm, volleyball practice was funn(: bitchass voleake couldnt come cos she was going car shopping. uhh, talked to George most of the time. he was listening to my ipod. hah. Coach thought i was choppin. lmao. nahh, he has a girlfriend. uhh..Patrick’s bitchass kept shakin his head at me. lmao. talkin about “im disappointed”. hahah. whatever. i got a lot of compliments (: it was nicee. i got hit w/ the ball twice ! both by Ivaan. bitchass. hah. uhh..that’s about it. the guys kept fucking around though. they better play good at the game tomorrow. i think ima go over to Mikey’s tonight.

ended up not. bleh. i got all lazyy. i’ll be sure to go over tomorrow though. i miss her (: hah. uhh, talked to Denver since i got homee. then he had to get off the computer. so, he called me (: we talked on the phone for a good 2 hours before he had to go. waack. hah. he’s sooo FOB. he was teaching me tagalog. lmao. it was funny (: but yeahh, i chopped him down. lmao. & i found out he has a tumblr ! i told him he cant follow me cos i’ve talked about him on it. haha. lmao. i have a feeling he’s gonna find it anyway. haha. eh.

March 22, 2010

 so, i woke up early as fuck for no reason. had a weird ass dream. i’m pretty sure it was about genocide? or just a mass killing.  but, me, somebody else, and this baby survived. it was kinda weird. hah. then i woke up. it was like 8:20 AM. woke my ass up for no reason. cant even go back to sleep. checked my phone and had a random ass text from some random ass number at 3 AM. i wonder who it could be. hah.

turned out to be Robby. how random. i think it was josh texting from his phone. hah. uhh, watched Step Brother’s & pretty much tumblred all kinds of love shit. lmao. supposed to go to the Commissary later. we’ll see how that goes.

well, went shopping. that was okay. hah. i kept singing in the store though. eh. lmaoo. uhh, came home, put on my tet fest volunteer shirt & some shorts & pretty much stayed on tumblr. randomly wanted to curl my hair. i tried to do it for the first time w/ a flat iron. shit didnt work out. lmao. so tried with a curling iron. looked waay better. haha. but yeee, looks pretty (: i clipped it up. thaaat’s how i wanted it to look for homecoming. but, the bitch at the salon wanted to go all out & do all kinds of bullshit. haha. but, i guess i might curl it for the game on tuesday. idkk. i wanna do something different. for now, ima jus chill. volleyball practice in the morning (: fucking waste of a weekend. at least it’s spring break<3

oh & saw exactly what i needed to see. hah. i’m done (: i mean it this time too. hah. got my eye on someone else now(; we set up a date today. haha. im excited. should be funn(: 

uhh, webcammed w/ Jae & Felix. it was fun (: hella took my mind off shit. then, went to Mikey’s house for a bit. it was good. hah. so far, Spring Break is kind of getting better.

March 21, 2010

Song On Repeat All Day Week: “Every Little Thing I Do (You’re On My Mind)” - Soul For Real

well, i woke up pretty early today. i dont know why. but, i missed Ivaan. i wanted to see him. i knew that wasn’t gonna happen. but, yeahh. i end up calling him. he didnt answer. i figured he was sleeping. he called me back a few minutes later. he was sleeping. it was kind of awkward. i asked him about practice and about his opinion on this other situation. he knew i something else was on my mind though. we talked on the phone for a good 2 hours. i didnt want to have that talk over the phone. but, it ended up happening anyway :/ hmm, a lot of things were said and a lot of things were confirmed. eh. i guess i am wasting my time. ive been trying to get over him & i want to. it’s just hard. i dont know why. but, yeahh..i didnt cry. i was just numb about it. i took Voleake’s advice and turned off my computer, put my phone on silent, listened to my ipod, & took a nap. i was good for that whole 2 hours. now, i’m still kind of numb. i don’t really want to talk to anybody. i’m just going to try to watch a movie and keep to myself.

ended up watching “She’s The Man”. hah. good movie (: kept getting called to help w/ shit though. bleh. hah. i forgot the dance thing was today. eh. s’all good. i didnt really feel like wearing a dress again. ima jus chill in bed all day. hmm, ima try to clean my room. im trying to eat healthy too ! eating fruits and shit. haha. we’ll see how the rest of the day goes. even though it’s almost over. hah.

oh & this reminds me of Felix’s picture ! hah. didnt think about that when i took it. but, now i do. except i look sad in mine. hah. hmm, eh. idk. i feel like i need to cry. like, most girls would cry in this situation. but, i cant. my mind wont let me. my heart wont let me either. i dont cry over guys. i dont know what makes this one different. mm, i dont really know how i feel anymore.

ooh. so Josh calls me around 9 & tells me to come outside cos my hijo is here ! hah. i miiissedd him sooo muchh(: to clear things up, my hijo’s name is Willy & he’s Josh’s brother. hijo means son & he’s like a son to me (: haha. but, yeahhh. i meet up with Josh, Willy, Ivan, Guero, & Robby. they’re all talkin about poppin some ex & smoking a bowl. Josh asks me if im down but i say no. me & Josh start talkin about shit. he asked about Ivaan & i asked about Karen. hah. apparently, his girlfriend thinks i look “cool”. hmm, we chilled for a good hour then they had to go. so, i hugged em goodbye & went inside. ooh & Josh tried on my 2011 sweater & wants to buy it. lmao. he says he’s gonna text me cos he wants to bond. hah.

March 20, 2010

WSUPDEN ! (:

hmm, HELLO, SPRINGGG BREAKKK<3 well, wore my sweater to school for the first time. hah. & wore my hair in a ponytail for the first time since i changed it. i guess it looks okay. hah.

forgot my phone at home this morning ! waackk. eh. 1st was okay. 2nd was okay, got a perfect notebook (: 3rd was good. watched some more of Hotel Rwanda. “Tutsi Cockroaches !” lmao. took a test in 4th. got a B. celebrated Ms. Curry’s birthday at lunch. got cake. yumm(: that reminds me that Cindy owes me pictures (: i think Darlyn, too? haha. her hair looked so pretty today ! umm, 5th was okay. some lady presented all class. i got a pen/high-lighter made out of recycled materials. lmao. didnt get to talk to Cindy about Wednesday though. hmm, talked to her about it while walking to 6th. 6th was funny(; started watching some movie called Zodiac til Tobin cut it off. lmao. me, Angel, & Lexus kept talking about Tutsi’s & Hutu’s. lmao. nobody understood except for us juniors (: Ty was all talking about “dont you ever leave me again. i missed you.” lmao. oh godd. haha. talked to Lexus a bit. it was good (; then ditched w/ Lexus to Ms. Curry’s classroom. we’re supposed to kick it sometime over break(; that should be doown. haha. walked w/ Cindy to the assembly. assembly was boooring. cheered for my volleyball boys though(: i wish i coulda gone up there with them. hah. talked to Alyssa & George while i waited for my ride to come. he’s gonna hook me up w/ some guy(: haha. we’ll see about thaaat. lmao.

come home to find out my grandpa fell. so, im watching the kids while my grandma takes him to the hospital. i hope he’s okay. but, yeee. cant go to the suhi thing anymore since im babysitting. s’all good though. ima make the most out of it (:

March 19, 2010

hmm, today, today, today. i guess it was pretty good. these are De La Rosa’s ! (; well, that’s what i call them. haha. they’re pretty fucking bomb & they’re my favorite mexican candy (: yummm(:

went to school. got called up to the office. i didnt have dress code either ! hah. everybody thought i was in trouble. i wasnt. it was my social worker. uhh, 1st was okay. jus took notes. 2nd, we did a lab. June said i had random ass shit in my purse. lmao. 3rd, watched “Hotel Rwanda”. 4th, got this practice test. i got a 72% on my quiz. -_______-. gotta retake it tomorrow. left w/ Brendan like 30 min before we were supposed to (; uhh, met up w/ some of the team. got food & hopped on the bus. sat next to Aron & listened to Disney songs on my ipod (: 

got to MOH. their gym is small as fuck ! hah. uhh, played volleyball for a good hour (; it was fuunnn! we had music to practice to & shit. haha. we need music at our practices ! im gettin waaayy better at my passing(: . saw some people that i havent seen since intersession. hah. Varsity lost. but, they’re doing waayy better (: got into it w/ Ivaan cos he was being a dick. -______-. got food from Jilbertos. JV played & won their first set. shared Adobada Fries w/ Patches (; yummm. i lowkey think he’s tryna chop. lmao. uhh, cheered the team on. ended up losing. but, it was okay. good game (: rode the bus home. danced a little. it was weird how me & Ivaan were both listening to “Gangstas & Strippers” at the same time. hah. rode the late bus & Ed told me to get off at his stop. walked to 7 eleven w/ Ed, Keeko, & Wooda. Ed kept tryna chop. tellin me to call him & shit. lmao. even gave me his number. haha. he bought me a gatorade. even though i didnt want it. then some De La Rosa’s even though i didnt want those either. lmao. he kept askin me to go to the movies and shit. i said no. he started talkin shit about Ivaan too. hah. fuuuuucked up. hmm, then they walked me home & here i am (: jus finished tutoring my little brother<3

oh & i missed Cindy today ! i really wanted to talk to her about yesterday, too. hmmm :/

March 18, 2010

jus got home ! today was aahhhhhh ! haha. had it’s waaayy ups & waaayy downs.

ended up having to go to school. to take the damn Fitness Test. bleh. but, i dont want P.E. senior year. haha. so, yeee. 1st was okay. got 170/200 on my notebook. -_______-. fckin Curry. uhh, went to advisory real quick. then career fair. it was pretty good (; haha. got all kinds of freee stuff & shit. i even tested my strength (: i got 80 ! the lady was surprised cos usually bitches get 60. hah. so, yeee. walked around w/ Ivaan, Aron, & Pete. Ivaan kept fckin w/ me. hah. then, went back to Ivaan’s advisory. kicked it there for a couple of hours, until nutrition. it was good (; uhh, Pete was all hyper. tryna chop & shit. lmao. it was funny. Ivaan listened to my ipod the whole time. i got aaalll the songs (: after nutrition, went back to class for like another 2 hours. spent it talkin to Ivaan & shit. we played air hockey on my ipod & i beat him twiiicee(: haha. fcker kept tryna tickle me & smack my chin. i kept gettin his ass back though. hah. i miss times like those. lunch was okay. stayed w/ Aron, Pete, & Ivaan. it was pretty good. when lunch was over, the guys went back to the classroom & i went to the dance room. ended up passing my fitness test w/ flying colors (; it was fckin hot though ! & i was tried from running a fucking mile. bleh. i was all red. went back to the class, found out some shit i didnt wanna know & it ruined my whole day. it was kinda weird after that. had a lot on my mind. some kid had brought his xbox to class, so i played UFC w/ em (: i ended up beating this guy ! fucking knockout babyyyy<3 lmao. then,  played Ivaan & he beat my ass baaaaadd. lmao. fucker. i didnt know how to block. ahah. chilled the rest of class til the bell rang. 

didnt go to volleyball practice cos we had the basketball banquet today. Adrian drove us home. got a ride from Voleake’s dad to Plaza. had to cover my lip ring. haha. walked around Plaza for a good hour & a half. then went to John’s Pizza. it was pretty nice (: made a new friend named Lily. she’s fucking hilarious. lmao. bitchass place had nooo type of reception. it was fuuunn though (; they got aaall the cute ass workers there. lmao. im about to apply (: then Voleake’s brother picked us up & dropped me off at home. 

i guess it kinda made up for that shit i found out earlier. hah. 

March 17, 2010