left my room 3 times the entire day. i was hungry. i couldn’t help it. they didnt look at me once. it was so awkward. it’s going to be like this for awhile. tomorrow morning is definitely going to be awkward. i tried to clean my room. since i was in here. didnt work so well. i was laggin it. didnt have the energy. so i didnt get far. all i cleaned is that corner. oh & fuuuck my legs. ew.
oh & got mad at my boyfriend cos he sent some message to some bitch saying “whats your number babe”. i wasnt sure how i was supposed to feel about that. but, really? you dont do that shit. it doesnt matter if you always used to call them that. not now. not when you’re in a relationship. it was fucked up cos i found out riiiiight after some bitch was in my formspring talkin about how she was gonna snatch & get his number & shit. really? after i backed him up on all that shit. sayin how he’s mine & that’s not gonna change. i guuuuess. but yeahh, ill get over it as soon as he apologizes. let’s hopee he does. cos if he doesn’t & if he doesn’t call me tonight, he’s fucked.
oh & January’s done (: 1 whole month. 11 more to go (;
January 31, 2010
OMFG. so todayy, everybody left me at home alone. for a good 4 hours. i walked around the house naked, cleaned, sang, & danced around. then my boyfriend said he was comin over (: soo, he came overr. & we were makin out & shittt. then they walked in on us ! omfg. the loongest lecture. my shirt was all off & shit. ahhhhh ! the whole time i was in shooock. we weren’t even gonna have sex. ughh. it’s crazy though. i still don’t know my punishment. then my Uncle Rocky came over w/ his gf for dinner. alllll awkward. they wouldnt even look me in the face. ahhhh, w/e.
oh & i stick my tongue out alot (:
January 30, 2010
fuuuuuck. i hella forgot about today’s picture. good thing i took this one w/ Aaron in 5th period. lmao. it took him forever to figure out how to do that, it was funny as fuuuckk. nobody knew how to do it. hahaha.
i was kinda pissed cos my boyfriend & his friend played this prank on me to fuck w/ my emotions. too see if i really cared. fckin went overboard & i got all pissed. so, yeaahhh. that’s about it. haha. he made things all better though. fuckerrr (:
January 29, 2010
the picture i originally wouldn’t come out right for shiiiiiit. haha. took this all last minute. right before the bell rang. so it’s still not that good. eh. good enough. haha. fckin auto focus.
today was good (: no fights w/ my boyfriend again ! haha. he was holding me today at lunch. i liked ittt <3 i fucking love him. haha. i beat him, too! we play this little game. like, first to say i love you over text, phone, and in person. & i won all three today (: haha. then, over text he random goes, “i loveeee my girlfriend :)” & i’m like, yeahh? & he sent me this.
i love when he does corny shit like that (: i have sooo many locked texts from him. haha. it’s been awhile since a guy has told me shit like this. i fckin love him. haha.
oh & Thank You, Kathya (:
fuuuuck, i cant believe it’s been 4 weeks already ! haha. i’m running out of creativity.
OH ! & Aaron goes, “Janisha, you take really creative pictures. You’re going to go somewhere in life.” lmao. oh godddd. haha. he’s so fckin random.
January 28, 2010
Smiiiilee(:
My smile. My best physical asset. thank god for braces. lmao. even though i lost my retainers :/ but, yeahh. has nothing to do with my day. just a self portrait. weeeelll, i was pretty happy today(: no fights today with my boyfriend ! need more days like this. haha.
Facts:
- I had braces from 4th-9th grade. my teeth weren’t even fucked up. just a whole bunch of complications occurred.
- self pierced my lip with a safety pin April ‘09
- i have chink ass eyes cos mixed ! I’m Black, White, Filipino, & Spanish (:
- i ALWAYS wear that necklace. as in 24/7. for a couple years now, too? haha.
January 27, 2010
bootleg ass Mosaic Art Project. i didn’t know all the black had to be covered. lmao. so i threw some blue scraps on it. i have a habit spending all my effort on the rough draft, then rushing through the final. eh. it’s Art class & I’m not creative. lmao. the star in the middle reminds me of transformers for some reason. haha.
mm, today was okaay. boyfriend gets mad at me too much. but, i read this on tumblr, “If you think stupid fights fuck up a relationship, it doesnt, it just makes it stronger.” so, i’m hoping it’s true (: a whole bunch of people want me to break up with him. they say he “hurts” me. but, im not. cos i love him(:
oh & 29, myyyy asss.
January 26, 2010
Fact: when i doodle, i write quotes and names and shit. haha. never pictures (:
today was bleh. cried all day. watched this pearl harbor video in 1st-US History. then bf made me cry at nutrition. then this Holocaust video in 3rd- English. haha. waaackk. i think im just being overly emotional. everything’s all good now though (:
phone quality shit. bleh. haha.
January 25, 2010
bet you didnt know i knew how to play the piano (;
haha. shit’s been there since i was boorn. i can only play like 4 songs. haha.
Happy Birthday, Mikey ! (:
eh. stayed home. i was lazy as fuck today. i was home alone for a couple hours singing & dancing and shit. haha. boyfriend was supposed to come over. but, he couldnt. s’all good though (: haha.
January 24, 2010
Viet Orientation (;
cos me & voleake are volunteering for the viet festival for community service. it was fun. haha. went w/ Voleake, Miguel, and Leandro. went to Voleake’s house first. got my shoes (: OG Cement Spizikes ! <3 Miguel picked us up and we stopped at Walmart real quick to meet up w/ Faustine & Kristine. drove up there. ate. signed in. did some relay races for prizes and won a shirt (: after, talked for a bit. then, Miguel dropped us off at Plaza. didnt go as i expected. -________-. i was pissed. so i was forced to buy all kinds of bullshit. Voleake bought some chucks. ew. hate chucks. lmao. dropped her off at home. then, stopped at subway. the guy working was all tryna chop. haha. ew. old ass. now, i’m home (: & it’s early AF. might go out. ill seee. haha.
won these shirts (:
January 23, 2010
im late as fuuuuuck. w/e. i still didnt have my cam charger :/ but, yeahh, this ugly ass basketball.
mm, so me & my boyfriend had been arguing all week. so i promised myself i wouldnt get mad. i didnt (: & everything was going all good. until 3rd period. we had class together & it was goin good. til i get this text saying that Ivaan told some people we had sex 4 times. we havent even had sex. -____-. i wasnt trippin though. i wasnt even gonna break up w/ him. cos i love him. but, i wasnt in the mood to talk to him at that moment. especially since i was mad. i figured we’d talk it out that night.
well, i ended up staying for the basketball gamee. then i started hearing all this other shit about Ivaan. about how he said he could break up w/ me at any time and i was annoying him. i still wasnt trippin. i knew we would talk it out & it would be all better. i wasn’t going to break up with him. so, i find out he’s coming to the varsity game and i get nervous as fuckk. so as he arrives, my heart starts beating aalll fast. but, i knew i wasnt going to talk to him first. he has to talk to be. well, he fckin ignored me the whole game. so, Jessica offers to go talk to him to tell him to talk to me. she does that & he says more than i expected him to say. started sayin shit about how he’ll wait until i text him & he’ll wait until i call him. so, Jessica tells him i’m not going to call or text him. & he goes, “I guess she’s going to lose me then”. that fucking hurt. a lot. i wanted to cry. but, i was too pissed. everyone was tellin me how that’s fucked up & they would have broke up with him. so, i decided to do it. after all, it seemed like he was already done. so i did it…
later that night, we talked it through. & we ended up getting back together (: and i’m happy. i dont want to lose him. i love him soo much.
January 22, 2010
barely meeting the deadline. & i dont even gotta pic. i shall come back & edit this post. lmao. & prolly change the picture. haha.
* okay, so it was raining all hard today. it was suuuper windy. i almost got blown away in the morning. haha. i dont likeeee ittt. i was all soaking wet when i went to 5th. fckin left my camera charger at mikey’s house. so my cam died & i couldnt take any pictures :/ then she wasnt home afterschool. so i couldnt get it. well, we played heads up, 7 up the last 10 min of art. it was kinda funn. haha. Shewit & Aaron kept fkcin w/ me. it was funny (: boyfriend was pretending to get mad at me. fucker. haha. mm, c/o 2011 was bleh. i want my damn sweater already. spent second half of lunch w/ my babe. i’m in loooveee his eyes (: 6th period was a bitchhh. it was funny. but the sub was a bitchh. haha. mm, babe got mad at me & i got all sad. he didnt even wanna talk to me. i felt all sad. we made up though. i hate when we argue :/ day ended up okay.
January 21, 2010
yeahhh, Marsified.
haha. well, i was lazy as fuck today. i didnt even bring my camera to school. plus, it was gonna rain. i didnt wanna get my shoes rained on like last time. so, i brought some vans. turns out it didnt rain til 3:00. -__________-. boyfriend was being a sweetheart today. haha. it was cute (: people always ask me why im being all smiley whenever he texts me. haha. it’s cute (: but, i ended up getting mad at his ass at lunch. -__________-. i was piiiissedddd. THEN we had class with each other after. aaalllll bad. ignored each other all class. we ended up talking it out when the bell rang. made things alll better (: it was our first fight in person though. but, that picture has nothing to do with what i did today. eh. i didnt bring my cam to school. then, i came home & sleeept for a good 3 hours. hah. so i took it late last nightt.
click the picture though, if you want to make your own. haha.
January 20, 2010
bleh. wet hair.
only part of the sky that wasnt all gloomy. haha. noooo editing. idk how i got it to look like that. hah. umm, it was windy as fuck today and fucking pooouring rain. babe texts me right before lunch saying “can i have a kiss in the rain (:”. it was fckin cute. so i had my first kiss in the rain today. vanessa needs to send me pics ! her big ass professional cam. haha. ooh, i accident ripped my babe’s hoodie pocket. haha. im sooorryyyy. overall fun day (:
January 19, 2010
why, hellloooo theree, wet hair (;
Self-Portrait !
used to be waaayy curlier. but, i straighten it too much (:
babe came over today (: couldnt take any good pictures. haha. plus, i think i have enough pictures with him. i thought i was gonna break my celibacy streak. guess not (;
fckin pouring rain & it was windy as fuck. ughh. gonna be like this all week. i’m determined to get a kiss in the rain though. & also take a good ass picture involving rain. lmao. not tryna get my cam wet though.
January 18, 2010
